The thoughts of one alcoholic/addict on life in recovery, the 12 Steps and spirituality.

Wonder is still out there.

You would think a person would know such a thing. Doesn’t “depressed” mean miserable? In emotional pain? Actively feeling bad and wallowing? The emotional version of how your thumb feels after you hit it with a hammer? Not always, I…

Remembering where to focus my attention and intention.

I am the only person on Earth tracking how “well” I am doing.

Yesterday I was feeling sad, without really knowing why. When I traced it back, I found a piece of news from the day before: that a woman I find attractive and charming, and about whom I had entertained some fantasies…

Some big wheels turning in my head lately.

Different places, same path.

Or, when we are determined to sit in a dark place and feel sad.